freedom

It was bad,
I prayed and I fasted,
I still fall everyday,
its better but I want it to be gone,
I feel I'm good then you show up
and I never feel good again,
I condemn myself,
I denounce you,
then I run back to you
I carry the weight around with me everyday,
the chip on my shoulder,
no one really knows half the time
what I'm thinking about

you are the one I loathe the most
but in my weakest moments
you show up with the right words
luring me right back to you
oh how oh how will I rid myself of you
no one seems to be able to help me,

sometimes I feel helpless
close to depression
I call myself back to consciousness
I'm not the only one
that has you
I'm not the only one suffering in silence
the guy next to me is going through the same

He is also a slave in chains of silence.
he will never be free like me
as long as he remains silent
today I stand to lose everything,
today I stand to gain my freedom,
naked I came naked I will return
I am not ashamed to say anymore,
I've fought this in your turf for too long
I an changing the turf,
I'm addicted
yes I'm struggling with pornography +
now you know ,
now I'm free.