They say that's the way its meant to be
I chose this path when I dipped into the honey jar
Whats sweet also is bitter
The bitter hurts as much as the sweet
The bleeding drips as freely as laughter
I am told that's the way it meant to be
let it take its path
I wonder is taking the path the only way to realization?
isn't there another way to realization
In this world is there only one path to realization
and in this world where favor has always been with me I feel like I can control it again
I have always controlled my outcomes
I've been told it hurts
I really don't believe
I don't know if I'd have done it with the knowledge I have now
I feel tied to a whipping chair
by my decisions, I agreed to this pain
love and pain seem inextricable
I feel like I can also control this outcome
I feel like I can separate love from pain
I know I can control what happens to me in life
This is in my power
I stutter at the precipice.....
My Achilles heel, the reluctance to shut the door completely
is the thread that weaves love to pain
Saturday, August 29, 2009
Random firings of my brain
Sometimes when I utter my thoughts they seem incomprehensible because the phrases do not seem connected to each other. The thing is my brain processes thoughts like an automatic really fast so every word is connected but 10 steps ahead of the normal, so I think.
Saturday, June 13, 2009
2 rounds of applause
Nowadays we must reserve 2 rounds of applause for politicians. When the politician says something the first round is given. When they execute it the second round is then give.
Thursday, May 28, 2009
Sometimes I self destructed
Sometimes I self destructed
I roamed around like a raging bull
Destroying what took years to build
I had no control over the destruction or myself
I just had great frustration and anger
Today I have grabbed this bull by its horn
no more self destruct for me
No more exposure to those situations
I have every reason to continue building
And no reason to stop
Forgive my self destructing nature of the past
Today its no more because once you know your problem
then its over.
The bull has become an eagle
the termite has become an ant and building it will continue
I roamed around like a raging bull
Destroying what took years to build
I had no control over the destruction or myself
I just had great frustration and anger
Today I have grabbed this bull by its horn
no more self destruct for me
No more exposure to those situations
I have every reason to continue building
And no reason to stop
Forgive my self destructing nature of the past
Today its no more because once you know your problem
then its over.
The bull has become an eagle
the termite has become an ant and building it will continue
Saturday, December 20, 2008
I refuse to make this my rant for 2008 but oh well
I would like to revisit my bone of contention with the black community in Canada as a whole
We need to change!!! I believe I ranted last year about the same thing. I have taken my advice
I went to an all black semi-formal party. After a one year hiatus from these types of events, I was told the words that I hate to hear
“It is for the grown and mature"
Grown and mature my foot!!
I am beginning to believe the adage you can take them out of the hood but you can't take to hood out of them. (Actually the only way it can be done is through enlightenment)
I am not grown and mature but if what I saw was what grown and mature is expected to be, then I don't ever want to grow up!
The place was filled with all sorts of beautiful womens (obviously I didn't go there for guys), from the hood rats girls looking to hit the jackpot, to the educated also looking for an "educated black man"
First problem was, they all looked the same. Bloody dole out 200-300 dollars and buy yourself a bloody designer dress.
Then you can distinguish yourself. Shop in Yorkville, on Bloor Street, the 3rd floor of the Eaton centre every classy place you feel an inexplicable natural repulsion to. Maybe then we will see more black models on the runway because black people buy the expensive runway clothes. Open you mind!!! You don't all have to wear the dress Beyonce wore to be sexy, create YOUR own style. You don't have to wait till some guy takes you shopping, you have money spend it! Call it a social investment. When you do watch the calibre of guys that will step up to talk to you and tell me if it made a difference. Really, what do you do with your money?
You expect the guys to be on point with the expensive clothes so you can pick them out easily and yet you look the same as the hood rat next to you how on earth am I supposed to talk to you differently?
On the topic of speaking I think good conversation is important. Half these girls couldn't go further than saying their names!( it is a generalisation because obviously I didn't talk to half of the girls, probably wouldn't have made it to half.
Pick up a darn book and flip the pages, you don't have to read just flip the darn pages there might be pictures or an interesting paragraph. You are too busy keeping up appearances, appearances for who? For the “good man" I spit on the concept of "a good man". Most of these girls couldn't spot a good man if it would save their lives. The problem isn't that good guys don't approach them like they say. It’s just that their idea of a good man in conflict with reality.
Now I'm calm, I believe this is a disturbing fact, despite recent strides by Obama to put black people on the map (some may argue he's mixed but they didn't have that argument till he won the election). At a time where we should be breaking of the shackles of limitation and ascending in every realm including socially, most folk just are not ready to.
In my perspective to be ready, you must be willing to open your mind to meeting different people from different backgrounds, traveling the world, reading books and learning from all these as you go.
There is a void in this department. There is an apparent lack of social role models in the social department. So that the role models that exist at the moment should really be students in that department.
I'm not a social model but I have tried to explore various social circles and I know what I don't want my social model to be. These all black parties are nice and give people a chance to look and feel good. We cannot end there we must visit the "white clubs" and listen to their music, the Asian clubs, the Indian clubs. We must conform to the culture of other ethnicities when we are in their zone if we expect them to conform to ours in our zone. “When in Rome act like the Romans"
We cannot expect to grow and learn if we go to party with the same set of people and with people of our same race all the time.
I don't want you to like me... I know there is one person for me and all this nonsense serves as an extra confirmation.
I don't expect anyone to take this calmly I actually expect an internal revolt for change. Some might feel the need to defend themselves please go ahead feel free. I am open to learn.
We need to change!!! I believe I ranted last year about the same thing. I have taken my advice
I went to an all black semi-formal party. After a one year hiatus from these types of events, I was told the words that I hate to hear
“It is for the grown and mature"
Grown and mature my foot!!
I am beginning to believe the adage you can take them out of the hood but you can't take to hood out of them. (Actually the only way it can be done is through enlightenment)
I am not grown and mature but if what I saw was what grown and mature is expected to be, then I don't ever want to grow up!
The place was filled with all sorts of beautiful womens (obviously I didn't go there for guys), from the hood rats girls looking to hit the jackpot, to the educated also looking for an "educated black man"
First problem was, they all looked the same. Bloody dole out 200-300 dollars and buy yourself a bloody designer dress.
Then you can distinguish yourself. Shop in Yorkville, on Bloor Street, the 3rd floor of the Eaton centre every classy place you feel an inexplicable natural repulsion to. Maybe then we will see more black models on the runway because black people buy the expensive runway clothes. Open you mind!!! You don't all have to wear the dress Beyonce wore to be sexy, create YOUR own style. You don't have to wait till some guy takes you shopping, you have money spend it! Call it a social investment. When you do watch the calibre of guys that will step up to talk to you and tell me if it made a difference. Really, what do you do with your money?
You expect the guys to be on point with the expensive clothes so you can pick them out easily and yet you look the same as the hood rat next to you how on earth am I supposed to talk to you differently?
On the topic of speaking I think good conversation is important. Half these girls couldn't go further than saying their names!( it is a generalisation because obviously I didn't talk to half of the girls, probably wouldn't have made it to half.
Pick up a darn book and flip the pages, you don't have to read just flip the darn pages there might be pictures or an interesting paragraph. You are too busy keeping up appearances, appearances for who? For the “good man" I spit on the concept of "a good man". Most of these girls couldn't spot a good man if it would save their lives. The problem isn't that good guys don't approach them like they say. It’s just that their idea of a good man in conflict with reality.
Now I'm calm, I believe this is a disturbing fact, despite recent strides by Obama to put black people on the map (some may argue he's mixed but they didn't have that argument till he won the election). At a time where we should be breaking of the shackles of limitation and ascending in every realm including socially, most folk just are not ready to.
In my perspective to be ready, you must be willing to open your mind to meeting different people from different backgrounds, traveling the world, reading books and learning from all these as you go.
There is a void in this department. There is an apparent lack of social role models in the social department. So that the role models that exist at the moment should really be students in that department.
I'm not a social model but I have tried to explore various social circles and I know what I don't want my social model to be. These all black parties are nice and give people a chance to look and feel good. We cannot end there we must visit the "white clubs" and listen to their music, the Asian clubs, the Indian clubs. We must conform to the culture of other ethnicities when we are in their zone if we expect them to conform to ours in our zone. “When in Rome act like the Romans"
We cannot expect to grow and learn if we go to party with the same set of people and with people of our same race all the time.
I don't want you to like me... I know there is one person for me and all this nonsense serves as an extra confirmation.
I don't expect anyone to take this calmly I actually expect an internal revolt for change. Some might feel the need to defend themselves please go ahead feel free. I am open to learn.
Friday, December 19, 2008
My thoughts on leadership inspered by Astiz , Mugabe, Nixon
The reward of leadership is the affection of their followers
Some in attempting to become leaders and stay leaders forget this
The things they do to become leaders and stay leaders alienate them from the affection of their followers
When they finally achieve their aims, they would have succeeded in scarring and alienating those whose affection they sought.
It is now a worthless pursuit because there is no prize at the end
Some in attempting to become leaders and stay leaders forget this
The things they do to become leaders and stay leaders alienate them from the affection of their followers
When they finally achieve their aims, they would have succeeded in scarring and alienating those whose affection they sought.
It is now a worthless pursuit because there is no prize at the end
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
Woe is me for I am unloved
I figured I have to blurb before all my pieces, it looks short and simple but deeper than it seems on the surface to me anyways,
Woe is me for I am unloved,
I did it all
I spoke to her when I first saw her,
I called like I was supposed to,
I listened, I cared, I hugged, I cuddled, I kissed
Just the way the routine said
Now I'm outside the door and he's in the bedroom
I wonder to myself...
how after doing this dance, did I end up on this side of the door ?
why did I follow the routine in the first place?
If I was on the other side of the door would I still feel loved?
Woe is me for I am unloved,
I did it all
I spoke to her when I first saw her,
I called like I was supposed to,
I listened, I cared, I hugged, I cuddled, I kissed
Just the way the routine said
Now I'm outside the door and he's in the bedroom
I wonder to myself...
how after doing this dance, did I end up on this side of the door ?
why did I follow the routine in the first place?
If I was on the other side of the door would I still feel loved?
Saturday, November 15, 2008
about a boy
I remember one of my favorite movies called about a boy starring Hugh Grant. The moral of the story was no man is an Island. Today it still remains true. No man can ever be an island, you need people to live. Life is like a stage play and everyone has their role in it. Its not a monologue.
Thinking about the how much help I've received from friends, once again I appreciate the importance of friendship.
Thinking about the how much help I've received from friends, once again I appreciate the importance of friendship.
Sunday, November 9, 2008
The Burn
My hands are unsteady,
I'm out of breath,
feels like I had the wind knocked out of me,
I remember this feeling....
I last had it when someone died,
I feel perpetually hungry cos I lost my diet,
loud music in my ears
gazing into space intermittently
unanswered questions,
overwhelming emotions make my knees weak
could it be the death of something should I give up
should i chase and continue to get hurt
Maye I should cut my losses and move on save myself the pain
Well I'm in already here I might as well see how much more it could hurt
I'm out of breath,
feels like I had the wind knocked out of me,
I remember this feeling....
I last had it when someone died,
I feel perpetually hungry cos I lost my diet,
loud music in my ears
gazing into space intermittently
unanswered questions,
overwhelming emotions make my knees weak
could it be the death of something should I give up
should i chase and continue to get hurt
Maye I should cut my losses and move on save myself the pain
Well I'm in already here I might as well see how much more it could hurt
Long road
Its been a long day and we've come a long way,
Today I have the feeling I ran from for so long
and it burns
Broken hearted is and understatement
Day 1 has begun and tomorrow I will continue
I know this for a fact
Issues of the heart are never easy the best thing is to run
when you have a chance never open up till you're ready for the benefits and the hurts
I have grown from a boy to a man and this is yet another rite of passage
it burns and burns
the human heart is a fickle thing it has a lot of passion but not enough strength
to be stronger it must burn
bench presses, push ups etc don't do much for strengthening
it needs to be burnt and seared.
Usher said let it burn and I am burning
my fingers will soon steady up
but I hate it and I cant stand the idea that I might burn again
I want to burn no more I have burnt enough and I have paid my dues to the department of burns lol
for today bring all the burns and the overwhelming pain,
I will sit and burn today and tomorrow and next.
There are more pressing issues at hand eg staying in school....
So I will burn as I run, what a life.....
God help me.....
Today I have the feeling I ran from for so long
and it burns
Broken hearted is and understatement
Day 1 has begun and tomorrow I will continue
I know this for a fact
Issues of the heart are never easy the best thing is to run
when you have a chance never open up till you're ready for the benefits and the hurts
I have grown from a boy to a man and this is yet another rite of passage
it burns and burns
the human heart is a fickle thing it has a lot of passion but not enough strength
to be stronger it must burn
bench presses, push ups etc don't do much for strengthening
it needs to be burnt and seared.
Usher said let it burn and I am burning
my fingers will soon steady up
but I hate it and I cant stand the idea that I might burn again
I want to burn no more I have burnt enough and I have paid my dues to the department of burns lol
for today bring all the burns and the overwhelming pain,
I will sit and burn today and tomorrow and next.
There are more pressing issues at hand eg staying in school....
So I will burn as I run, what a life.....
God help me.....
Saturday, October 11, 2008
Waiting for the storm
I've been told there is a calm after the storm
I beg for the storm to come already
I need the calm
I sit here phased out
my pacy mind refuses to venture into troubled waters
Its been there before
too much hurt it say to me
too much hurt
The Absolut sits waiting
waiting to be poured all over the open wounds
but when will they be opened?
I fill my time up
I know its there lurking somewhere but I can't control when it hits
I lay on my back my armor is off my chest
"HIT ME ALREADY"
I scream in my head
"HURT ME ALREADY
RIP ME INTO PIECES
TEAR ME INTO SHREDS
LET THE HURT BEGIN
I'M TIRED OF WAITING FOR YOU
I'M TIRED OF RUNNING FROM YOU
I CHALLENGE YOU WHEREVER YOU'RE HIDING COME OUT
DO YOUR WORST
THIS GAME OF FEAR IS TIRING
DO YOUR WORST AND LETS BE DONE WITH IT
BRING THE PAIN"
I beg for the storm to come already
I need the calm
I sit here phased out
my pacy mind refuses to venture into troubled waters
Its been there before
too much hurt it say to me
too much hurt
The Absolut sits waiting
waiting to be poured all over the open wounds
but when will they be opened?
I fill my time up
I know its there lurking somewhere but I can't control when it hits
I lay on my back my armor is off my chest
"HIT ME ALREADY"
I scream in my head
"HURT ME ALREADY
RIP ME INTO PIECES
TEAR ME INTO SHREDS
LET THE HURT BEGIN
I'M TIRED OF WAITING FOR YOU
I'M TIRED OF RUNNING FROM YOU
I CHALLENGE YOU WHEREVER YOU'RE HIDING COME OUT
DO YOUR WORST
THIS GAME OF FEAR IS TIRING
DO YOUR WORST AND LETS BE DONE WITH IT
BRING THE PAIN"
Friday, September 26, 2008
I'm content
The crux of the issue remains,
People change,
people consistently change,
change is good.
It should be embraced,
not considered as a threat.
Instead should be applied to new areas,
see how long it can be stretched,
change means irreversibility.
Those who resisted it got replaced,
those who replaced it got resisted.
it means once the earth moves past a point in its revolution it doesn't come back to the same spot
Change means I have found my problem and fixed it,
I like my results and I'm happy the way things are.
I care but i'm not compromising on this issue.
It is a step in the right direction,
It is an ultimatum that spells you take it or leave.
Its results may bring a fear of irrelevance
if handled well they may just send you a couple of steps ahead
change is the result of an age old argument
and I'm tired of the age old argument.
People change,
people consistently change,
change is good.
It should be embraced,
not considered as a threat.
Instead should be applied to new areas,
see how long it can be stretched,
change means irreversibility.
Those who resisted it got replaced,
those who replaced it got resisted.
it means once the earth moves past a point in its revolution it doesn't come back to the same spot
Change means I have found my problem and fixed it,
I like my results and I'm happy the way things are.
I care but i'm not compromising on this issue.
It is a step in the right direction,
It is an ultimatum that spells you take it or leave.
Its results may bring a fear of irrelevance
if handled well they may just send you a couple of steps ahead
change is the result of an age old argument
and I'm tired of the age old argument.
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
My occasional friend
Hi my name is Simbi and my life just ended! You see
only a few times does my life come to a stand still ,
I am a career driven lady in my late 20's,
I own a house and a car.
I have a job as a consultant plus I make 6 digits a year.
I have no need for money,
I'm quite comfortable.
You see I have a friend who is a minister in South Africa,
we met at the airport one day and exchanged numbers.
We talked on the phone a couple of times,
he flies down to visit me about 2 times a year.
This has been going on for 5 years.
In that time I have dated 2 guys,
I used to tell them that I was leaving town to meet a relative,
their little brains couldn't perceive that I was at a 5 star hotel,
in the arms of my special friend.
Those relationships barely saw light of day,
something about me being too independent and too detached and unavailable etc.
Cut the story short they fell by the way side
He's married with 2 kids by the way,
I have no issue with that.
He calls me 2 weeks before he flies down,
for him I rearrange my plans.
He stays at mine,
we go shopping at the stores I like,
eat out at gourmet restaurants,
I make him try new dishes but he seems to be stuck in his ways,
If I were his wife I'd have taught him better.
About the sex hmm... lets just say that experience is not lacking.
When he's not around I don't roll around in bed missing him,
I pursue my career with ambition and work long hours,
I go home after 4pm.
I learnt from the 2 idiots I dated and now I don't date anyone else
besides I have a career to chase so I don't have time to date.
Some people say I just come off as hostile.
My circle of friends don't know about my special friend,
they just know I disappear occasionally.
I usually laugh it off,
keep those losers off my back,
if they knew what it feels like to date a minister,
the rush you feel when you're with him!
Now I sit its my 29th birthday
I'm with the same 3 friends from 6 years ago,
I used to have more I think some just felt neglected,
tough luck no time for babies.
Just got off the phone with the parents,
they were on about marriage .
I'm happy the way things are, who needs to be put through that headache
my 3 friends even though they are at my table,
seem to be more in blackberry world than with me,
I guess its more of a pity showing,
they'd rather not be here I can tell
Last time I went out with them,
oh I mean last time I did anything social was 2 years ago.
Oh a special day like this I wish I could be with someone special,
but I can't call my special friend,
he calls me.
The table across is beginning to annoy me they speak loudly,
laugh loudly and it seems like its a birthday,
she seems happy to have friends around,
I envy the way her boyfriend is making a fuss
I understand him he wants it to be perfect
my friend does that too.
He looks my way I blush and turn away,
why did I do that,
maybe I should flirt with him from far
after all I am attractive.
I do turn the heads of those young interns at the office
every year we get a new batch.
As male attention goes thats the most I get.
I'm not really a social creature so you will find me at home after 4pm
This outing is becoming more depressing than joyful,
the stupid waiter is inquiring about desserts,
I toss him the credit card .
He better hurry I'm ready to leave.
I beg you not to judge me just yet
hear me out:
I'm a loyal person I have always been from childhood,
a girl guide from elementary school till college,
I have been buying my toiletries from the same pharmacy since I moved here 4 years ago.
Its my nature when I find something I like I don't want to change it you know
this special friend I fell for,
yet again I might be in love
I fell in love with the romance we shared,
In love with the convenience our arrangement presented
I am free to pursue my career all but 3 times a year
I like it much
most guys I meet want me around all the time,
I can't do that,
I don't care if he is married I don't want to marry him
Just got off the phone with him
he told me he had resigned from his job;
some personal objections to the way the president was running the country,
not that I care not one for politics.
He also said that due to the way things have turned out in his career,
he will be unable to make his annual trips besides his family needs him more these days.
Nothing about me or how I feel,
I felt like I was just hit by a train!
I don't think he understood how important our arrangement was
the last 5 years flash before me,
my birthday cake still sits with 29 inscribed on the strawberry chocolate icing
I'm screwed!!!
only a few times does my life come to a stand still ,
I am a career driven lady in my late 20's,
I own a house and a car.
I have a job as a consultant plus I make 6 digits a year.
I have no need for money,
I'm quite comfortable.
You see I have a friend who is a minister in South Africa,
we met at the airport one day and exchanged numbers.
We talked on the phone a couple of times,
he flies down to visit me about 2 times a year.
This has been going on for 5 years.
In that time I have dated 2 guys,
I used to tell them that I was leaving town to meet a relative,
their little brains couldn't perceive that I was at a 5 star hotel,
in the arms of my special friend.
Those relationships barely saw light of day,
something about me being too independent and too detached and unavailable etc.
Cut the story short they fell by the way side
He's married with 2 kids by the way,
I have no issue with that.
He calls me 2 weeks before he flies down,
for him I rearrange my plans.
He stays at mine,
we go shopping at the stores I like,
eat out at gourmet restaurants,
I make him try new dishes but he seems to be stuck in his ways,
If I were his wife I'd have taught him better.
About the sex hmm... lets just say that experience is not lacking.
When he's not around I don't roll around in bed missing him,
I pursue my career with ambition and work long hours,
I go home after 4pm.
I learnt from the 2 idiots I dated and now I don't date anyone else
besides I have a career to chase so I don't have time to date.
Some people say I just come off as hostile.
My circle of friends don't know about my special friend,
they just know I disappear occasionally.
I usually laugh it off,
keep those losers off my back,
if they knew what it feels like to date a minister,
the rush you feel when you're with him!
Now I sit its my 29th birthday
I'm with the same 3 friends from 6 years ago,
I used to have more I think some just felt neglected,
tough luck no time for babies.
Just got off the phone with the parents,
they were on about marriage .
I'm happy the way things are, who needs to be put through that headache
my 3 friends even though they are at my table,
seem to be more in blackberry world than with me,
I guess its more of a pity showing,
they'd rather not be here I can tell
Last time I went out with them,
oh I mean last time I did anything social was 2 years ago.
Oh a special day like this I wish I could be with someone special,
but I can't call my special friend,
he calls me.
The table across is beginning to annoy me they speak loudly,
laugh loudly and it seems like its a birthday,
she seems happy to have friends around,
I envy the way her boyfriend is making a fuss
I understand him he wants it to be perfect
my friend does that too.
He looks my way I blush and turn away,
why did I do that,
maybe I should flirt with him from far
after all I am attractive.
I do turn the heads of those young interns at the office
every year we get a new batch.
As male attention goes thats the most I get.
I'm not really a social creature so you will find me at home after 4pm
This outing is becoming more depressing than joyful,
the stupid waiter is inquiring about desserts,
I toss him the credit card .
He better hurry I'm ready to leave.
I beg you not to judge me just yet
hear me out:
I'm a loyal person I have always been from childhood,
a girl guide from elementary school till college,
I have been buying my toiletries from the same pharmacy since I moved here 4 years ago.
Its my nature when I find something I like I don't want to change it you know
this special friend I fell for,
yet again I might be in love
I fell in love with the romance we shared,
In love with the convenience our arrangement presented
I am free to pursue my career all but 3 times a year
I like it much
most guys I meet want me around all the time,
I can't do that,
I don't care if he is married I don't want to marry him
Just got off the phone with him
he told me he had resigned from his job;
some personal objections to the way the president was running the country,
not that I care not one for politics.
He also said that due to the way things have turned out in his career,
he will be unable to make his annual trips besides his family needs him more these days.
Nothing about me or how I feel,
I felt like I was just hit by a train!
I don't think he understood how important our arrangement was
the last 5 years flash before me,
my birthday cake still sits with 29 inscribed on the strawberry chocolate icing
I'm screwed!!!
Friday, September 12, 2008
I think they are learning
If anyone follows the whole piracy/ Copyright saga, you will find that the corporate powers that be in the entertainment industry have finally learnt one or 2 things.
I googled heroes online and found that you can also watch the episodes online now. If not for the stubborn online TV show posters on sites like tv-links.com who kept on posting links to tv shows even after they were taken down, we would have still been stuck with waiting 2 years to be able to get the season DVD when the season is over. the network giant learnt that the consumer is not neccessarily controlled by bar charts and pie charts. If the conditions you present to them are not satisfactory the consumer will leave your controlled environmnet(governed by demand and supply) and will go into the black market to get what they want. I say this because I wanted to buy my aunt an ER season DVD as a wedding gift because she always records it. I went to HMV to find that ER season DVD's were released about 4 seasons later( I could have just gone and downloaded the seasons I wanted online I chose to buy them and these guys were telling me to wait for 4 years). While I noticed they still have the practice on the ER DVD's it was good to see on the heroes website the season 2 DVD an blue ray disc are currently up for sale.
So in essence some lessons have been learnt and if we did not have the new generation of peopel who constantly challenge the norm. We will be stuck with these entertainment giants and their oppressive marketing strategies. Opressive because their strategies only made you pay for more things in order to get 1 thing.
I googled heroes online and found that you can also watch the episodes online now. If not for the stubborn online TV show posters on sites like tv-links.com who kept on posting links to tv shows even after they were taken down, we would have still been stuck with waiting 2 years to be able to get the season DVD when the season is over. the network giant learnt that the consumer is not neccessarily controlled by bar charts and pie charts. If the conditions you present to them are not satisfactory the consumer will leave your controlled environmnet(governed by demand and supply) and will go into the black market to get what they want. I say this because I wanted to buy my aunt an ER season DVD as a wedding gift because she always records it. I went to HMV to find that ER season DVD's were released about 4 seasons later( I could have just gone and downloaded the seasons I wanted online I chose to buy them and these guys were telling me to wait for 4 years). While I noticed they still have the practice on the ER DVD's it was good to see on the heroes website the season 2 DVD an blue ray disc are currently up for sale.
So in essence some lessons have been learnt and if we did not have the new generation of peopel who constantly challenge the norm. We will be stuck with these entertainment giants and their oppressive marketing strategies. Opressive because their strategies only made you pay for more things in order to get 1 thing.
Thursday, September 11, 2008
No computer
I'm officially a blogger with no computer. Its part of my plan to pay more attention to the real people and things around me and use the internet time more efficiently
Juice for maintaining self confidence
I once read in a success magazine a quote froma renowned self improvement expert. I don't remember his name, but when asked why he kept setting goals and breaking records, he aswered " I don't know my mother used to tell me, son, you were born a 10, and you will die a 10 don't ever let anyone make you feel less than a 10 because you're not."
Think about it. Use it
Think about it. Use it
Sunday, August 31, 2008
My achievements this summer
- I worked my first real engineering job.
- I paid my rent all summer and contributed to my education costs more than I have done before
- I paid for my holidays and travelling by myself
- I shopped and bought myself nice stuff, I didn't have to steal money like some people did when I was younger
- I gained more social confidence
- I gained more general confidence
- I figured out my plans for the future
- I discovered my purpose
- I got closer to God
- I withstood peer pressure and did not go drinking on a weekday
- I was able to retake tennis
- I played tennis with strangers
- I learnt how to make friends with complete strangers
- I showed respect for other people's cultures.
- I developed extraordinary resilience
- I developed extraordinary patience
- I learnt making mistakes is not a bad thing, I always picked myself up quickly
- I learnt more about myself
- Learnt more about my learning style
- I gained more wisdom to help me make a bid for deans list
- I worked on my family relationships
- I worked on my relationship
- I bought gifts. I paid tithe and gave offering.
- I incorporated healthy eating to my lifestyle
- I ate early dinners
- I ate 3 meals a day mostly
- I gave my laptop away
- I did not worry about money
Friday, August 29, 2008
Shop Etiquette
If you decide to walk into a high end fashion store and notice that the attendant ignores or snubs you. don't be discouraged because this is a front and in this scenario you are the customer and they the servant. When you want to take a look at an item, look at the attendant and say very audibly," excuse me I need help here" stare at them ignore their body language.
They will come eventually because if they don't and you complain thney will get into trouble and what more you may get a good discount. When they come feel free to ask for whatever help you need even if you don't intend on buying. This always works to elevate your self confidence and remind them that they need you to spend money.
Long Island, NYC, 2008
They will come eventually because if they don't and you complain thney will get into trouble and what more you may get a good discount. When they come feel free to ask for whatever help you need even if you don't intend on buying. This always works to elevate your self confidence and remind them that they need you to spend money.
Long Island, NYC, 2008
Friday, August 22, 2008
What I really want
I'll tell you what I want,
I want continuous attention
I want to be the center of attention,
I want to be attractive,
I want to be sexy,
I want to have many admirers,
I want to turn heads when I walk up the road
I want to feel accepted
I want to be loved
I want continuous attention
I want to be the center of attention,
I want to be attractive,
I want to be sexy,
I want to have many admirers,
I want to turn heads when I walk up the road
I want to feel accepted
I want to be loved
Friday, August 8, 2008
Love came early
Today I stand ,
guiltless i stand,
victim I have become,
dilemma is my inflictor,
i stand in a place of pain,
because I am at war within myself,
I am undone in more than one part,
my pieces are scattered in my mind
today my thoughts have refused to be collected,
in the other side everything i have worked
on the balance hangs love
and common sense
and they have parted ways
and i am left in the middle,
hopeful and torn,
i am split in the middle from my head through my chest to my feet,
my muscles have refused to flinch,
they also are in the middle,
Love offers peace of mind,
safety from rejection,
honesty at all times
love offers security for insecurity,
love offers shelter from the rain,
food in times of hunger,
a lap for my head in troubled times,
loved offers a smile to calm my stormy heart
a voice to soothe my wounded soul
she shows trust in her hands,
a willing companion
a suffering friend
when i flinch in my sleep love rubs my back to soothe me
Today love came early
alas I cannot love,
I am at my wits end
love demands too much of me
love demands me to tread on unknown territory,
to walk blindly
to turn away from the very logic that has kept me this long
love came early
love asks too much of me
for if I love I will walk in a foreign land with a foreign tongue
today love came early
today love demands that I give it all up
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