Love came early

Today I stand ,

guiltless i stand,

victim I have become,

dilemma is my inflictor,

i stand in a place of pain,

because I am at war within myself,

I am undone in more than one part,

my pieces are scattered in my mind

today my thoughts have refused to be collected,

in the other side everything i have worked

on the balance hangs love

and common sense

and they have parted ways

and i am left in the middle,

hopeful and torn,

i am split in the middle from my head through my chest to my feet,

my muscles have refused to flinch,

they also are in the middle,

Love offers peace of mind,

safety from rejection,

honesty at all times

love offers security for insecurity,

love offers shelter from the rain,

food in times of hunger,

a lap for my head in troubled times,

loved offers a smile to calm my stormy heart

a voice to soothe my wounded soul

she shows trust in her hands,

a willing companion

a suffering friend

when i flinch in my sleep love rubs my back to soothe me

Today love came early

alas I cannot love,

I am at my wits end

love demands too much of me

love demands me to tread on unknown territory,

to walk blindly

to turn away from the very logic that has kept me this long

love came early

love asks too much of me

for if I love I will walk in a foreign land with a foreign tongue

today love came early

today love demands that I give it all up