My achievements this summer

1. I worked my first real engineering job.
2. I paid my rent all summer and contributed to my education costs more than I have done before
3. I paid for my holidays and travelling by myself
4. I shopped and bought myself nice stuff, I didn't have to steal money like some people did when I was younger
5. I gained more social confidence
6. I gained more general confidence
7. I figured out my plans for the future
8. I discovered my purpose
9. I got closer to God
10. I withstood peer pressure and did not go drinking on a weekday
11. I was able to retake tennis
12. I played tennis with strangers
13. I learnt how to make friends with complete strangers
14. I showed respect for other people's cultures.
15. I developed extraordinary resilience
16. I developed extraordinary patience
17. I learnt making mistakes is not a bad thing, I always picked myself up quickly
18. I learnt more about myself
19. Learnt more about my learning style
20. I gained more wisdom to help me make a bid for deans list
21. I worked on my family relationships
22. I worked on my relationship
23. I bought gifts. I paid tithe and gave offering.
24. I incorporated healthy eating to my lifestyle
25. I ate early dinners
26. I ate 3 meals a day mostly
27. I gave my laptop away
28. I did not worry about money

Shop Etiquette

If you decide to walk into a high end fashion store and notice that the attendant ignores or snubs you. don't be discouraged because this is a front and in this scenario you are the customer and they the servant. When you want to take a look at an item, look at the attendant and say very audibly," excuse me I need help here" stare at them ignore their body language.
They will come eventually because if they don't and you complain thney will get into trouble and what more you may get a good discount. When they come feel free to ask for whatever help you need even if you don't intend on buying. This always works to elevate your self confidence and remind them that they need you to spend money.

Long Island, NYC, 2008

What I really want

I'll tell you what I want,
I want continuous attention
I want to be the center of attention,
I want to be attractive,
I want to be sexy,
I want to have many admirers,
I want to turn heads when I walk up the road
I want to feel accepted
I want to be loved

Love came early

Today I stand ,

guiltless i stand,

victim I have become,

dilemma is my inflictor,

i stand in a place of pain,

because I am at war within myself,

I am undone in more than one part,

my pieces are scattered in my mind

today my thoughts have refused to be collected,

in the other side everything i have worked

on the balance hangs love

and common sense

and they have parted ways

and i am left in the middle,

hopeful and torn,

i am split in the middle from my head through my chest to my feet,

my muscles have refused to flinch,

they also are in the middle,

Love offers peace of mind,

safety from rejection,

honesty at all times

love offers security for insecurity,

love offers shelter from the rain,

food in times of hunger,

a lap for my head in troubled times,

loved offers a smile to calm my stormy heart

a voice to soothe my wounded soul

she shows trust in her hands,

a willing companion

a suffering friend

when i flinch in my sleep love rubs my back to soothe me

Today love came early

alas I cannot love,

I am at my wits end

love demands too much of me

love demands me to tread on unknown territory,

to walk blindly

to turn away from the very logic that has kept me this long

love came early

love asks too much of me

for if I love I will walk in a foreign land with a foreign tongue

today love came early

today love demands that I give it all up

I'm right brained, whoopeee, or wait is it?

I was doing some research on learning styles as I prepare to launch my bid for the Deans list. I came across a test that showed you what side of your brain you use more. I discovered I am right brained. The following article about right brained, was a relief because I finally found someone who was telling me that my behaviour was kind of based on the part of my brian I used more dominantly. I actually used to think I was alone and special, because people just did not get the way I thought or acted. I think there are lots of left brained people in this world thats why.
Your dominant side doesn't mean a permanent side its just a side you tend to naturally use more than the other. So you can develop the other side too to be more balanced.
As you will see the typical righty does not conform to conventional ways of doing things, in terms of math and spelling I'm a lefty. You may get the impression that a righty is...well...dull! Thats because our eduction system has a "leftist" design and approach. So in order to learn the righty has to improve their left side.

The site is http://frank.mtsu.edu/~studskl/hd/learn.html

300 bucks for Toronto

On a recent trip back to Toronto. I set aside $300 for all costs because I know with Toronto the problem is not the cost of items, if you look well you will find a deal. Its just so much stuff to spend on. It is a whole new expense problem. In smaller cities its probably the cost but there its the fact that if you don't cap your budget you will buy till infinity and not stop.
For instance I went looking for jeans, we went into FCUK which had sales so the jeans were in the $80's, we went into guess and their jeans were in the 70's. My thighs were too big for those designs ( i'm not a skinny guy with no bum, I'm an ex-footballer, 36" waist and thighs that fit in a 40" leg.) We decided to go into Holt Renfrews and boy, I could spend 5,000 in there and come out with a pair of jeans. So it was a good idea to cap my spending.
The same applies to eating I could easily purchase a $3.00 pizza meal at the dominion or I could go and spend $30 a plate at club met for a well cooked meal that from experience would satify me as much as a pizza. I could do $50 at Sassafraz for a meal that barely satisfies but hey who cares I'm sitting in one of Yorkville's finest rubbing shoulders with the stiff nosed sort . Price is nothing, if my charm works well I could bag myself a lady who has enough credit for both of us. Lol. How about the CN tower where a friend spent $300 for a 3 course meal.
I know this is random but my point is good thing I capped my spending else today, a week after, I'd be asking so... what happened to all that money?