Friday, September 26, 2008

I'm content

The crux of the issue remains,
People change,
people consistently change,
change is good.
It should be embraced,
not considered as a threat.
Instead should be applied to new areas,
see how long it can be stretched,
change means irreversibility.
Those who resisted it got replaced,
those who replaced it got resisted.
it means once the earth moves past a point in its revolution it doesn't come back to the same spot

Change means I have found my problem and fixed it,
I like my results and I'm happy the way things are.
I care but i'm not compromising on this issue.
It is a step in the right direction,
It is an ultimatum that spells you take it or leave.

Its results may bring a fear of irrelevance
if handled well they may just send you a couple of steps ahead
change is the result of an age old argument
and I'm tired of the age old argument.

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

My occasional friend

Hi my name is Simbi and my life just ended! You see
only a few times does my life come to a stand still ,
I am a career driven lady in my late 20's,
I own a house and a car.
I have a job as a consultant plus I make 6 digits a year.
I have no need for money,
I'm quite comfortable.

You see I have a friend who is a minister in South Africa,
we met at the airport one day and exchanged numbers.
We talked on the phone a couple of times,
he flies down to visit me about 2 times a year.
This has been going on for 5 years.
In that time I have dated 2 guys,
I used to tell them that I was leaving town to meet a relative,
their little brains couldn't perceive that I was at a 5 star hotel,
in the arms of my special friend.
Those relationships barely saw light of day,
something about me being too independent and too detached and unavailable etc.
Cut the story short they fell by the way side

He's married with 2 kids by the way,
I have no issue with that.
He calls me 2 weeks before he flies down,
for him I rearrange my plans.
He stays at mine,
we go shopping at the stores I like,
eat out at gourmet restaurants,
I make him try new dishes but he seems to be stuck in his ways,
If I were his wife I'd have taught him better.
About the sex hmm... lets just say that experience is not lacking.

When he's not around I don't roll around in bed missing him,
I pursue my career with ambition and work long hours,
I go home after 4pm.
I learnt from the 2 idiots I dated and now I don't date anyone else
besides I have a career to chase so I don't have time to date.
Some people say I just come off as hostile.
My circle of friends don't know about my special friend,
they just know I disappear occasionally.
I usually laugh it off,
keep those losers off my back,
if they knew what it feels like to date a minister,
the rush you feel when you're with him!

Now I sit its my 29th birthday
I'm with the same 3 friends from 6 years ago,
I used to have more I think some just felt neglected,
tough luck no time for babies.
Just got off the phone with the parents,
they were on about marriage .
I'm happy the way things are, who needs to be put through that headache
my 3 friends even though they are at my table,
seem to be more in blackberry world than with me,
I guess its more of a pity showing,
they'd rather not be here I can tell
Last time I went out with them,
oh I mean last time I did anything social was 2 years ago.
Oh a special day like this I wish I could be with someone special,
but I can't call my special friend,
he calls me.

The table across is beginning to annoy me they speak loudly,
laugh loudly and it seems like its a birthday,
she seems happy to have friends around,
I envy the way her boyfriend is making a fuss
I understand him he wants it to be perfect
my friend does that too.
He looks my way I blush and turn away,
why did I do that,
maybe I should flirt with him from far
after all I am attractive.
I do turn the heads of those young interns at the office
every year we get a new batch.
As male attention goes thats the most I get.
I'm not really a social creature so you will find me at home after 4pm
This outing is becoming more depressing than joyful,
the stupid waiter is inquiring about desserts,
I toss him the credit card .
He better hurry I'm ready to leave.

I beg you not to judge me just yet
hear me out:
I'm a loyal person I have always been from childhood,
a girl guide from elementary school till college,
I have been buying my toiletries from the same pharmacy since I moved here 4 years ago.
Its my nature when I find something I like I don't want to change it you know
this special friend I fell for,
yet again I might be in love
I fell in love with the romance we shared,
In love with the convenience our arrangement presented
I am free to pursue my career all but 3 times a year
I like it much
most guys I meet want me around all the time,
I can't do that,
I don't care if he is married I don't want to marry him

Just got off the phone with him
he told me he had resigned from his job;
some personal objections to the way the president was running the country,
not that I care not one for politics.
He also said that due to the way things have turned out in his career,
he will be unable to make his annual trips besides his family needs him more these days.
Nothing about me or how I feel,
I felt like I was just hit by a train!
I don't think he understood how important our arrangement was
the last 5 years flash before me,
my birthday cake still sits with 29 inscribed on the strawberry chocolate icing
I'm screwed!!!

Friday, September 12, 2008

I think they are learning

If anyone follows the whole piracy/ Copyright saga, you will find that the corporate powers that be in the entertainment industry have finally learnt one or 2 things.
I googled heroes online and found that you can also watch the episodes online now. If not for the stubborn online TV show posters on sites like tv-links.com who kept on posting links to tv shows even after they were taken down, we would have still been stuck with waiting 2 years to be able to get the season DVD when the season is over. the network giant learnt that the consumer is not neccessarily controlled by bar charts and pie charts. If the conditions you present to them are not satisfactory the consumer will leave your controlled environmnet(governed by demand and supply) and will go into the black market to get what they want. I say this because I wanted to buy my aunt an ER season DVD as a wedding gift because she always records it. I went to HMV to find that ER season DVD's were released about 4 seasons later( I could have just gone and downloaded the seasons I wanted online I chose to buy them and these guys were telling me to wait for 4 years). While I noticed they still have the practice on the ER DVD's it was good to see on the heroes website the season 2 DVD an blue ray disc are currently up for sale.
So in essence some lessons have been learnt and if we did not have the new generation of peopel who constantly challenge the norm. We will be stuck with these entertainment giants and their oppressive marketing strategies. Opressive because their strategies only made you pay for more things in order to get 1 thing.

Thursday, September 11, 2008

No computer

I'm officially a blogger with no computer. Its part of my plan to pay more attention to the real people and things around me and use the internet time more efficiently

Juice for maintaining self confidence

I once read in a success magazine a quote froma renowned self improvement expert. I don't remember his name, but when asked why he kept setting goals and breaking records, he aswered " I don't know my mother used to tell me, son, you were born a 10, and you will die a 10 don't ever let anyone make you feel less than a 10 because you're not."
Think about it. Use it