Woe is me for I am unloved

I figured I have to blurb before all my pieces, it looks short and simple but deeper than it seems on the surface to me anyways,

Woe is me for I am unloved,
I did it all
I spoke to her when I first saw her,
I called like I was supposed to,
I listened, I cared, I hugged, I cuddled, I kissed
Just the way the routine said
Now I'm outside the door and he's in the bedroom
I wonder to myself...
how after doing this dance, did I end up on this side of the door ?
why did I follow the routine in the first place?
If I was on the other side of the door would I still feel loved?

about a boy

I remember one of my favorite movies called about a boy starring Hugh Grant. The moral of the story was no man is an Island. Today it still remains true. No man can ever be an island, you need people to live. Life is like a stage play and everyone has their role in it. Its not a monologue.
Thinking about the how much help I've received from friends, once again I appreciate the importance of friendship.

The Burn

My hands are unsteady,
I'm out of breath,
feels like I had the wind knocked out of me,
I remember this feeling....
I last had it when someone died,
I feel perpetually hungry cos I lost my diet,
loud music in my ears
gazing into space intermittently
unanswered questions,
overwhelming emotions make my knees weak
could it be the death of something should I give up
should i chase and continue to get hurt
Maye I should cut my losses and move on save myself the pain
Well I'm in already here I might as well see how much more it could hurt

Long road

Its been a long day and we've come a long way,
Today I have the feeling I ran from for so long
and it burns
Broken hearted is and understatement
Day 1 has begun and tomorrow I will continue
I know this for a fact
Issues of the heart are never easy the best thing is to run
when you have a chance never open up till you're ready for the benefits and the hurts
I have grown from a boy to a man and this is yet another rite of passage
it burns and burns
the human heart is a fickle thing it has a lot of passion but not enough strength
to be stronger it must burn
bench presses, push ups etc don't do much for strengthening
it needs to be burnt and seared.
Usher said let it burn and I am burning
my fingers will soon steady up
but I hate it and I cant stand the idea that I might burn again
I want to burn no more I have burnt enough and I have paid my dues to the department of burns lol
for today bring all the burns and the overwhelming pain,
I will sit and burn today and tomorrow and next.
There are more pressing issues at hand eg staying in school....
So I will burn as I run, what a life.....
God help me.....